i have never felt like my soul has "escaped" and what i mean by that is, i have never felt so carefee in my life. i dont even care anymore..i can run around like a weirdo and i could not care if anyone thinks i am weird..i can say what i want and not regret. i dont care anymore, and what a wonderful feeling that is. i am aware at how bizarre this may sound but honestly its satisfying after years of caring for judgements of ass holes, i dont mind. they never cared, why should i ? i always say i have what i need..i wouldnt trade anyone for the world, that's all i need. the people i know. i dont need much to be happy. it took a long time to realize what ive always wanted was already mine! my friends! they have always been there and i love each and everyone of them. i am so glad i showed some of them the door..haha some asses deserved it. i feel so rich with gratitude..i wish i could thank someone for this feeling.
i used to stay up at night and cry wishing bad things for myself..but i realized, i have a life..and i am here for a reason, i am not sure what..but i think i know now. i am here to help people, always be there for them. i just figured out what life is about : not learning, it's a bout living.
sometimes you wanna give up but you cant. you never know whats on the other side. you gotta keep going..who knows
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